Slight paraphrase of the great Dave Grohl for the title, but this week’s confession is all about what makes you freak out. Everyone’s scared of something. It could be something intangible like death, something wierd like chocolate or a pretty common like spiders. I’m not going to lie, some of my fears are normal and some are mighty irrational. I warn you, this post is probably going to make me seem like a really anxious person – I’m not. Fear for me is mostly a motivator – I try and use it to push me forward and get past them but there are some that I’ve just never been able to shake.
The Gateway Bridge
This bridge really freaks me out. You can’t see it as well in the photo, but when you approach it, it looks like it goes into the sky and doesn’t come back down. Like all the cars go up the tippy top and then just fall into the river. Gives me a major wiggins. I would rather drive a half hour out of my way than go over it. If I am the passenger I just absorb myself in a book and try to pretend it’s not happening.
A couple of jobs ago, I had to deliver a short welcome speech to new employees about the IT Department. There was only ever a maximum of about 5 or so people in the room and I would still freak out and throw up before every speech. While I’ve gotten past this to some degree, I do have quite a lot of nightmares about speaking in public and being so boring that I’m stomped to death by a stampede of people who want me to shut up.
I don’t watch a lot of horror movies, because so many of them rely on eyes or eyeballs getting hurt. Even a close up of an eyeball makes me want to gag, let alone watching something happen to it. This one stems back to dissecting bull’s eyes in biology class. We had to cut them open, put the bits on slides and label them. My classmates started gleefully cutting while I ran outside, gagging and crying. My kind biology teacher offered me a different assignment collecting plants and drawing what they looked like under the microscope. She also let me spend the cane toad dissection lesson in the library computer lab. Ms Dixon, you’re the best teacher I ever had.
Last but certainly not least – ever since I was a child, I’ve been scared of enclosed spaces and none of them are more scary to me than the shower. I’ve had an insane recurring nightmare of being slowly drowned in a shower ever since I was small, and after watching The Cell in my twenties, well it seemed a lot more plausible. I can barely put my head under to rinse my hair without giving myself a pep talk. and I once had a business trip to a room that had a sealed off to the roof shower with no bath. No word of a lie, I was so freaked out I showered at the office. It still scares me day to day, and I just have to sort of force myself through it.
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